The book that started to change my way and view of life

I don’t read book that much. The same goes for novels poems or anything that is written in a paper or compiled in a thick book. Though I read only a few books that talk about life or all about fantasy, there is this book that totally changed my life. It’s not bible though I’m in a prayer group or I’m a Roman Catholic. The book that I’m referring to is titled “Being Happy!” by Andrew Matthews. It is a book that talks about life, set backs, failures, triumph in ones life, goals in life and a lot more that is related on ones personal life. It totally affected my life in a way that I changed my views in life. When I read the book before for our book review in my English class during our freshmen days, I thought before those things that Andrew mentioned in the book don’t add up. They don’t even relate one way or the other. But after I finished reading the book, I tried to self reflect, thought of the things Andrew mentioned, tried to relate the book is saying in my life, and thought critically about life. Guess what, they are all connected. Just then I realized that such things exist, events that most of the people ignore happen and that such possibility that are unimaginable is existing right now in our very own lives. The book greatly influenced me when it explained how our conscious and subconscious thoughts greatly affect our way of living. My mind was boggled on how it work and how they relate in our lives but it made me more interested on reading it. I learned something new and totally different from the knowledge some other books offer. The book said that only a part of our mind is our conscious side, meaning that we only knew, about a quarter or less, things about our self. Our conscious side points our goal and our destination. On the other hand, our subconscious side is way bigger than our conscious side. It’s like our subconscious side covers entirely about our mind or our way of thinking. The subconscious side is the one responsible why and how we meet our goals and what we end up if we end up in different path. It is even responsible on our daily actions and habits. The subconscious side of our mind is the fuel that keeps us going and the conscious side is the one that tells us where to go. In that way the two relate. By understanding the conscious and subconscious part of our brain as the book said, my mind was exposed on different sorts of things that I didn’t notice before. It’s like such things in life work that way a long time ago; people just don’t notice it much because they keep closing their minds and deny reality as it is because of fear for it. The book definitely changed me from the day I read the book; even now I share the stuffs I learned from the book to my friends and almost all of those lessons that you learn from that book is still in my head.

If I were a famous person

If i were a famous person, I would be a star that rocks the world just like Chester of hte Linkin Park, HELL YEAH!!!!! hahaha :)) . Shining bright like a star in the middle of the night, I will rock the whole world, making the chicks go wild just hearing me coming and making the title "STAR" real and not just for show. I don't want to be and I won't do what other sissy bands do, playing songs like they won't live another day or songs of a crying person wanted to commit suicide. To make things short, I won't play songs for emo, they SUCK!!! YEAH!!!! DAMN RIGHT!!!! I'll make the girls love me like a I'm a popstar or an artist playing rnb. I'll just keep on playing my songs, rocking the world, keep on taking awards because of my songs, and keeping myself famous. Even though I'll make enemies or make the other bands hate me in the process of my being a "ROCK STAR", I don't care about them, its just that I'm famous and they SUCK!!! And DAMN!!! that feels good, seeing myself stealing everything from them at the top of their career. SORE LOSERS!!! HAHAHAHA !!! LOL :)) ... about the stealing thing, I just made it up if I were Chester. He don't it actually in reality hehehe :D

Whats up with me right now

A lot of things happened to me this past days that still affect me in a way right now. Sort of things like my best friend coming at my school, events or mishaps that made me realize things I don’t before, being close to my friends, making new friends, meeting new people and a lot more. Just like a mushroom that pop out of nowhere, this past events of mine suddenly came to me unexpectedly, I didn’t even had the idea that such things could happen. I don’t even had the idea how the hell it could be me. These events that I'm mentioning right now happen on different days, they still relate in some way that makes me reminisce that “past” and that bugs me right now, one way or the other.

My mind can’t comprehend on things like that, stuffs like red threads of fate, destiny, or what ever you call it. I'll just leave it to God; I know it’s somewhat bad to leave everything to faith if reason can't explain it. But it's just that I can't answer it on my own, even if I ask my friends or the adults about it, we arrive at the same answer, “only GOD knows.” Fortune tellers can fore tell events or explain such things, but I don't trust them, I just don't. About the “events” that I'm babbling about, it happened just this week, just a few days ago. I can't mention it here even though it feels like I'm writing a diary, I fear that some person out there will understand what I meant one way or the other. If it happens that that person whom I expected not to read this the most read this, I don’t know what will happen. Maybe, just maybe, I’ll be damned and I don't want that to happen. I don't know what will happen next and I don't want to imagine it, I'll lose everything I've earned back from what I lost before and start from scratch again. Alright, enough of that, I'm starting to feel like I'm turning EMO and DAMN I hate them. Just like what I wrote in my other blog, the “ME” being a “ROCKSTAR.”

Alright, I don't want to talk about it anymore, let’s just talk about the other events or mishap that happened to me. Jumping from those “events” to the mishap that happened to me, I some how can't get over it right now, I mean the mishap. Just this afternoon, I lost my pouch in RECTO. Even though I don't know if I really lost it or it was stolen from my bag. My best friend J.R. just noticed the front portion of my bag was left unzipped, because were in RECTO, J.R. told me if my pouch is still there and guess what, its not. We tried to search for it and just assumed that it’s stolen. We assumed just assumed it that way. What else would a normal person think if a person's bag was noticed unzipped in RECTO and that person's wallet or pouch gone? Yeah I know that I could call myself a moron for not noticing it and not thinking that anything could happen anytime and anywhere. But its just that I zipped my bag while were still on the jeep, after we went down at RECTO we walked a few distance and in just less than five minutes J.R. noticed my bag opened and that’s it, my pouch gone. I don't want to dwell much on that, its just that it’s stuck on my head and its affecting me right now.

The mishap that happened to me in RECTO is not all mishap. There’s also a good part on it, for me. It’s just that, I happened to think about it since it’s stuck in my head. I tried to analyze that event and viola, tons of answers came to my mind. I thought of “why GOD made it happened to me.” I thought of it a good thing that I only had P120 in my wallet at that time, that the money that I was supposed to spend to buy books was not there, that the money that I kept for my friend to buy a certain book was not there, that no one was hurt, that I only lost mine and not those from my friends, that its not a gadget, and a lot of stuff. It’s like a blessing in disguise. Also, because of that event, I turned out to be more aware of my surroundings far more than I was before. Even right now that I'm in my house, I'm still alert, though not that much than I am outside. One could say that I'm traumatized or the event still has an effect on me, but I'll say that they're wrong, It’s just that I learned a thing or two from it, that’s why.

I have a friend that was just a classmate to me just a week ago. I don’t know if it’s just that time fly so fast or its just that I’m too friendly, I don’t know. She’s having a hard time right now doing this blog and I don’t know why. I told her to just type what she’s doing right now. I gave her a tip on how to do things like this faster and easier. I told her to put anything that she has to say if she is talking in the mirror or on a mute. It’s a bit funny for me when I said those words to her, but it’s a lot funnier when she reacted after I said those tips. She told me that she can’t concentrate that much because of the radio station she’s listening to right now. After she mentioned the radio station in the yahoo messenger, I remember the station I was listening to before. It’s a station that you can’t specify if it’s a station for dirty minded people, celebrity or crazy people. It’s so funny that just remembering what their doing at they’re station makes me laugh. Right now I’m laughing not because of the station that I just said it is because just seeing this blog right now makes me wonder how the hell I could make such a blog. It’s like seeing 20 people coming out from a car, wondering just how in the world they fit inside it. Well anyway, I’ll end it here. I don’t want to end up revealing secrets here; it’ll be hard once that happens.